I miss blogging. I miss writing out my feelings and thoughts. I like most moms, have crammed so many things into my day that I don’t even know what spare time is anymore. Is it possible to be addicted to being busy? There’s something to think about. I go and go each day forgetting to eat till 4pm some days. Most people would lose their minds, but I feel like I thrive on being busy. The busier I am the better I feel. It’s weird to explain.
There is something about the morning rush. Getting 3 kids ready to go out the door. Did I mention that I have my kids at different schools right now too!? Yeah so that happens daily, drop off one at one school and the other at another. Little miss luckily doesn’t have to be at school till I go to work.
Most moms go home and clean or relax (aka sleep)after school drop off….not me. It’s perfect timing to take a ornery 5 year old to the store or post office before rushing off to workout classes.
After working out (my therapy) it’s 10:30 by the time I get home. I have exactly 40 minutes to get myself showered and ready for work while helping my daughter get ready and keeping her away from anything messy. White shirts with a uniform…not a smart idea!
This is my normal….once I’m at work Im busy there, grading papers, telling kids to stop picking their noses (then have to explain why I want them to wash their hands) reading, recess, lunch and almost begging this 4th grade class to just walk thru the halls quietly….it still hasn’t happened. 4th graders are the reason I have so much new gray hair.
After work it’s the same in most homes. Homework, dinner, cleaning, getting ready for the next day, any family errands, bedtime routines and off to bed they go.
I know your reading this rolling your eyes thinking it doesn’t sound that busy. Let’s add that we decided to put our house on the market…NEXT WEEK….so I’m painting and doing everything I can to have that ready. Oh and I wanted to make more money so I’m in the hiring process to teach English online. Already hired but need to do another class before I am ready to teach on my own.
Why do I do this to myself? Why over cram my day? Why overbook myself knowing it doesn’t always workout? Why leave myself with NO time to relax till my husband tells me to come to bed. I hired a maid so that I can have a clean house but with us selling it’s complete chaos around here! Thankfully she will be cleaning before photos are done.
So do you think its possible to be addicted to being busy? Am I the only one that feels like I might be out of control with everything I have put on my plate?
I think it’s totally possible the more I think about it. Being busy and rushing from here to there, or having a to do list to long to complete gives me a sense of an adrenaline rush. It’s like this race I’m having with myself daily. I hate not getting things done or being on time so I hurry even more. I feel like once I’m on time or complete the tasks that I have this overwhelming since of joy, almost pride. I am thrilled to do what was needed, on time and the best that I could give. Adding more jobs in my day makes it trickier to still do everything but I like that rush in between each task.
You guys, Im totally addicted to being busy! I’m addicted to that rush it gives me as I race from one place to another or complete painting a room before I need to go to bed…I’m totally addicted to the crazy busy but still keeping it together lifestyle. I add more as a challenge, to see if I can really do it. Then when I do….I add MORE!
Ok, my mind is racing and did I mention its 4:30 in the morning and I have a busy day ahead and need to get like 1 more hour of sleep??? Seriously, this is sad.